INSTANT MOMMY
Was on mc yesterday. Feeling tired and recovering from a fantastic weekend with my B and the kids. It's the nicest feeling when the first thing you see in the morning is the smile on their face. Some things are better left unsaid, but they're like the kids I never had. Don't get me wrong. I never intend to take their mommy's place. I will NOT do that simply for the respect that I have for mothers in general. And to her credit, I think she's done an excellent job as a mother. I just hope I can match up to her, when the time comes.
On another note, Ran called yesterday. It was his wifey's birthday (happy birthday Rin!). He's asked for one of Keith Urban's numbers, "Making Memories of Us". I bet he wanted to dedicate the song to Rin. Anyway, I thought it was sweet of him. She deserves it (and more!), as far as I can see. Just like my B, Ran has 2 kids from his previous marriage and Rin has taken the role of instant mommy so comfortably and selflessly. And to think that she's way younger than the rest of us. I can tell the kids love and adore her. I understand all too well how nervewrecking it must have been initially, to win the kids' heart and trust and how easy it is to make them part of your life and before you know it, you can't imagine not having them around.
I guess, at the end of the day, it's what you want it to be.
As for me, I will not have it any other way. I wouldn't change a thing...
On another note, Ran called yesterday. It was his wifey's birthday (happy birthday Rin!). He's asked for one of Keith Urban's numbers, "Making Memories of Us". I bet he wanted to dedicate the song to Rin. Anyway, I thought it was sweet of him. She deserves it (and more!), as far as I can see. Just like my B, Ran has 2 kids from his previous marriage and Rin has taken the role of instant mommy so comfortably and selflessly. And to think that she's way younger than the rest of us. I can tell the kids love and adore her. I understand all too well how nervewrecking it must have been initially, to win the kids' heart and trust and how easy it is to make them part of your life and before you know it, you can't imagine not having them around.
Falling in love with a man who was married before and with kids takes a lot of understanding. It teaches you to be less selfish. You have to realize that his love for his children cannot be compared to his love for you. They're not the same. Also, the world does not revolve around you and him alone and thus, it cannot be "just about you and him". But then, who says falling in love is only about "taking" all the time? Sometimes, you'll feel more love than ever when you're the giver. And you'll be surprised by how humbling it can be too. To see what it means to the other person, and to realize how much it means to you as well.
I guess, at the end of the day, it's what you want it to be.
As for me, I will not have it any other way. I wouldn't change a thing...
posted by Ms O at 9:58 am
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