THE STATE WE ARE IN

As I read the news this morning, I wept uncontrollably. Tried as I might, the tears just couldn’t stop flowing. There was this excruciating pain in my heart; pain of sadness and helplessness on one hand and unimaginable anger on the other. And I was not even the one who carried her in the womb for 9 months.

Such atrocity! How it came about and what drove a person to commit such barbaric act is beyond me. Is it a reflection of our failure as a society? Are not adults responsible to provide safe and healthy surroundings for the children to grow up in? Could we had done anything more? What can we do to stop this nightmare?

Ya Allah! At times like this, I pray for your guidance and compassion. My faith in You is the only guiding light that’s helping me get through this period of doubt and uncertainty. I know that You have a greater plan for the girl; she will be your guest in your beautiful firdaus right where she belongs, smiling from one ear to another for she knows there could not be a better place for her than where she is right now. I know You do not want us to weep her death but You want us to weep at the state we are in as individuals and society.

The worst thing we can do right now is turn a blind eye and deaf ear and pretend as if it had never happened. Let us be more alert, more vigilant no matter where we are. Maybe it’s time to get to know our neighbours and their children better. Maybe it’s time for us to pay more attention to the happenings in our neighbourhood especially, more closely. Maybe it’s time for us to be less selfish and start to think and care a bit more about other people too. Maybe it’s time for each of us to be a better member of our society. We should not let her die in vain.

May you rest in peace, little girl. Amin.

Salam Ramadhan by the way...

CRAZY WOMAN

Let me warn you. This post is going to be one BIG bitching session. There'll be vulgarities. I need to vent it all out. If you're hesitant, PLEASE don't proceed. Just leave.

To-one-pathetic-crazy-biatch! (YES! YOU!),

Honestly, we don't give a shit about you and your husband. Seriously. You're the one acting like a lunatic, sms-ing, complaining about your husband's affair with "THAT" woman. And for a while, I truly pitied you. We both pitied you. And we thought, never mind, just let her be. Perhaps she needs someone who's not judgemental towards her, to let out her frustration and somehow you seem to find some common grounds with Mr. H.

How you perceived THAT woman....I don't give a toss. I DON'T FUCKING CARE! What you want to do with your life, it's your damned prerogative. The fact that you're allowing your husband to marry THAT woman, IT'S NONE OF OUR BUSINESS! Why should we care? It's you who has to share your husband. It's you who has to spend nites alone in bed imagining your husband screwing some other woman. If you can live with that, good for you! And you know what, it has got nothing to do with us.

But it IS our problem when you try to mess up with our lives and drag us into your pile of shit! We have all moved on. For you to say that it's a lesson learnt for Mr. H is just WAY, WAY out of place.

First of all, who do you think you are? Yes, you're trying to justify (we didn't even ask you to coz we just don't care) your husband taking another wife. Perhaps you want to look at yourself in the mirror first? Let it be a lesson learnt for Mr. H??? Girl, he's learned his leasson long time ago. He tried so hard to save his previous marriage. He tried so hard to improve himself. Finally he realized his self worth and moved on. Your husband marrying THAT woman?? That's YOUR LESSON LEARNED, GIRL!

You think Mr. H is still hard-up for THAT woman and because of that, u think he cares about the MAN she's currently screwing??? I wonder who gave you the idea that Mr. H still has undying love for THAT woman. For your information he's now happily married to a woman who loves him with all her heart, who takes him as he is, with all his imperfections because she knows she ain't perfect either. Perhaps, together, they can help each other to become better beings. And you THINK HE'S GONNA CRY BECAUSE THAT WOMAN IS MARRYING YOUR HUSBAND???? GILA KE HAPA???

And if you think THAT woman needs a protector and your husband happens to be THE knight to protect her, bagus la. Kita hidup ni, memang kena belajar terima hakikat. At least, you know your husband is marrying THAT woman not because he wants a new warm body in bed with him, bumping and grinding his nights away. langsung tak......SUMPAH...

"Niat abang suci sayang. Abang nak tolong pompuan tu. Kesian dia. Dia dan anak-anak dia (macam la budak2 tu takde bapak) perlukan perlindungan dari lelaki yang hebat dan perkasa macam abang ni. Anak-anak kita, sayang jaga la sendiri, ya? Ex-husband dia tu, dah hancurkan hidup dia! Memang haprak punya lelaki! Tengok la pompuan tu sekarang. Merana...pakai baju pun, kain selalu tak cukup. Sayang tak sedih ke? It's nothing physical at all sayang. And it's not because of you. You takde cacat celanya. Percaya la. Abang cuma nak melindung pompuan teraniaya tu dari bekas suaminya yang dah pun moved on and happily married and yang kalau tak kerana anak-anak, tak nak tengok langsung muka pompuan yang lidahnya bercabang-cabang dan hebat berlakon. Jaja cerita sedih (kononnya la) untuk dapatkan simpati lelaki. Ish, ish, ish.... Memang tak ada orang lain yang lebih merana la dari pompuan tu satu Malaya ni. Dahsyat sayang. Kalah cerita Hindustan. Sayang izinkan la abang kawin lagi satu, ya???"

Please la. Leave us alone. If you want to get upset or go cuckoo, don't include us. We have enough friends in our lives and we don't need lunatic like you hovering around like a pest.

Whilst you're busy spitting on the path Mr. H is walking, keep on a look out on the path you're taking. If you're not careful, you might get lost. Think about it.

There are always two sides of the story. And the truth is always less believable. Lies... you can modify and alter them to suit your needs and make it appear real. You can't do that with the truth.